Sunday, April 14, 2013

Hatha Yoga; Rishekesh

Well it has been a busy 2 weeks with ups and downs. The days are  filled with new information, new asanas, sore muscle and loads of massage oil. Enjoying the course and the teacher of philosophy is good! He is confirming all my ideas that the philosophy behind Hatha and Astanga yoga practices compliment each other and in turn can enhance my Buddhist meditation practice because up to a certain philosophical point these paths are similar. After all the historical Buddha did study and practice yoga philosophy and was the disciple of many a yogi master before he went off and did his own meditative research. It is funny  though I feel like a Tibetan Buddhist spy in amoung all the Hindu Yogis stealing their practice secrets.
 The only thing that does bug me or not feel right is this idea of a universal consciousness or Atma.  Ok I was born in the 60"s and have a wee bit of hippy to me but this theory  is just not grounded enough for my mind  and  for me the Buddhist  philosophy on Emptiness or Anatma  is much more logical; where as 'univeral conciousness' is just way up there with purple unicorns; i.e. can't be proven.

We have also had some other fun activities related to our studies and this week we have to draw and colour in the chakras. Yes I feel like I am in primary school again complete with getting to 50 other student whom are all mostly in their late 20's. The yoga group also attended a fire puja ceremony on the river Ganga this week which was just beautiful and yesterday we took a walk up the hills to a small temple. Rishekesh is a beautiful place just waiting to be explored. Hope I can find the time to do so.
girls at fire puja

Monkey Mama

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Kashmir Book Review Just In

I just read the latest review for Nylas Book and want to pass it on as many of you may be able to use her work in your research or  to expand your personal knowledge. I had mentioned the book in previous posts, so here is the latest review.

http://us.macmillan.com/theparchmentofkashmir/NylaAliKhan



The Parchment of Kashmir gathers together a wide range of essays on the subject of Kashmir. It is a compelling and stimulating book for a number of reasons. First, it interrelates a range of disciplines from political science and sociology to history, philosophy, and English. Second, it is produced by academics, all of whom are based in Jammu and Kashmir. Third, because these essays are written by scholars who are intimate with Kashmir, yet have not had an opportunity to be read outside of local circles, the book gives them a readership that they otherwise wouldn’t have; but readers themselves also benefit because the essays provide them with a view that is genuine and local and that otherwise would have been obscured.
The book comprises an introduction and nine chapters, each authored by different scholars. Therefore, it seems appropriate to structure this review according to their separate contributions. As with any such collection of essays, there is, of course, an element of repetition. But, broadly speaking, the essays follow a chronological trajectory, passing from the personal, through the spiritual, to the practical, and then back to the personal. The book is demarcated by sections which group the essays under such subjects as identity andKashmiriyat, cultural syncretism, sovereignty and democratic governance, conflict, and knowledge production.
Nyla Ali Khan, the editor, who currently teaches at the University of Oklahoma and has written extensively on Kashmir (most recently, Islam, Women, and Violence in Kashmir: Between India and Pakistan, Tulika Books, 2009; Palgrave Macmillan, 2010; Gulshan Books, 2011), begins her Introduction with a general look at Kashmir, focusing next upon issues of history, nation, culture, and misfortune. Noteworthy is Khan’s insistence on the heterogeneity of Kashmiri identity and history, her refusal to sentimentalize aspects of cultural loss (such as the loss of Kashmiriyat), and her emphasis on ‘analyses of subjectivity’, which makes possible her own emphasis on women’s roles and identity in the context of cultural and political upheaval. In Khan’s words: ‘Narrative structures in this work are constituted by the variables of race, gender, education, marital status, social class, and nationality, which generate complex conventions and relations of power’ (p. 7). The result of this diversity of personal and ideological backgrounds is a richness that cannot be reduced to a monolithic truth about Kashmir.
The first chapter, ‘Evolution of my identity vis-à-vis Islam and Kashmir’, by Mohammad Ishaq Khan, provides an effective opening by examining personal identity and opinions in the historical environment of Kashmir. Most important, key terms are introduced, includingKashmiriyatjihadrishisSufis, and azadi. All are examined from the personal viewpoint so that, for example, jihad is thought of as the war against one’s baser self. The essay concludes with an appeal to the higher, unifying logic of spiritual nonviolence.
Continuing the discussion of Kashmiriyat, the second essay, ‘Kashmiriyat: The Voice of the Past Misconstrued’, by Rattan Lal Hangloo, historicizes this ethos of Kashmiriness, viewing it not merely as a concept but as a many-layered, syncretic cultural and secular institution. This essay is, in many ways, the most fundamental contribution in that it examines Kashmiriyat in detail, its development and change over time. Hangloo views Kashmiriyat as unique to Kashmir as a result of geography, ecology, religion, and culture, although it has imbibed influences from neighbours. He concludes with a useful discussion of the partial erosion of Kashmiriyat in terms of diaspora and the geopolitics of the Cold War.
Chapter three builds upon the previous contribution in that it examines both Muslim and Hindu approaches to Kashmiriyat. But M.H. Zaffar’s inspirational essay on the spiritual nature of Kashmir prioritizes ‘an un-indoctrinated folk approach’ (p. 71) as it looks in turn at Buddhism, Saivism, and Sufism. The whole is further enlightened by wonderful selections from the poetry of Lal-Ded and Nund Rishi.
Neerja Mattoo’s essay complements Zaffar’s in bringing the Sufi and Saiva traditions together as a symbiotic entity. Mattoo discusses the poetry of Lal-Ded, Nund Rishi, Shah Ghafoor, and Rupa Bhavani to show how the Muslim and Hindu mystical traditions fuse to form a common worship of the Divine.
The following four chapters take a pragmatic turn, beginning with Noor Ahmad Baba’s ‘Democracy and Governance in Kashmir’, which introduces the more practical elements in an examination of democracy and government. In the conflict between two states over governance, the Kashmir Valley in particular has suffered, leaving a politically bereft community and laying waste to the potential of a true democracy, defined here as ‘the empowerment of people, ensuring rule of law and guaranteeing rights and securities fundamental for living a good life’ (p. 106). Sheikh Mohammad Abdullah’s re-election in 1975 paved the way for decentralization through local governance with the adoption of the Panchayati Raj Act of 1989; unfortunately, these sound initiatives were squandered as the Jammu and Kashmir region grew increasingly militant and divisive. The key point made by Baba is that there are not simply two states that are involved; this simplistic view completely disregards the will of the people and produces politico-institutional distortions.
Gull Mohammad Wani’s essay, ‘Political Assertion of Kashmiri Identity, follows naturally from Baba’s while taking up the thread begun by Hangloo on the subject of identity politics. Wani clarifies that the issues lie essentially between people, not in people. The idea of community is traced through history, from 1585 onward, and illustrates the gradual elimination of the Kashmiri self. Particular attention is paid to the spirit of nationalism and the drive for self-determination in the face of foreign aggression and oppression, and the secular ideology of Kashmiriyat is understood as the core element of Kashmiris, such as was embodied in the 1950s political mobilization led by Sheikh Mohammad Abdullah. Wani argues that the distinct identity of the Kashmiris is rooted in history and culture, but it also includes variables such as geography, economic viability, and iconography. While such a view has been inhibited by the differing thought processes of India and Pakistan and held back by global geopolitics, the essay remains optimistic about the prospects for regional governance.
Chapter seven investigates in more detail the historical links between Kashmiri and Indian nationalisms. These were not inimical in their aims – agrarian reform being one of the binding factors, secular democracy being another. However, over time and, in particular, with the ousting of Sheikh Mohammad Abdullah in 1953, the two came into conflict; Kashmir then became India’s ‘national interest’ and thus the two nationalisms became antagonistic. Of note in the essay is Rekha Chowdhary’s urging readers to consider what is left out of forms of nationalism that are univocal and monolithic: the will of the people themselves in all of their cultural diversity and genuine heterogeneity.
Bashir Ahmed Dabla’s essay, ‘Sociological Dimensions and Implications of the Kashmir Problem’, develops many of these ideas from the sociological viewpoint. Commendable is Dabla’s inclusion of his own personal experiences of the trauma and ravages wrought by the state of militarization and militancy in Kashmir. His premise is that Kashmiri identity is distinctive, affected by a wide range of factors including religion, ideology, politics, economics, sociology, culture, and psychology. With the active participation of academics, the distinctive Kashmiri perspective has been highlighted and reinforced by the growth of militancy. The author recognizes four phases over recent history: one, Kashmiri national fervour and progressive reforms; two, ambiguous democracy; three, mass election rigging; four, the insurrection of Kashmiri youth. Following this is a discussion on a range of broadly sociological problems, including demographic manipulation, economic backwardness, educational backwardness, violence against women, deviance and crime, and the effects of all of these, including discrimination against Kashmiris, cultural deprivation, mental and physical deterioration, corruption and militancy. Dabla concludes that there is a desperate need for social programmes and, in fact, complete social rehabilitation.
The book closes with a moving personal account of the politics of exclusion enforced by the Indian hegemonic state. From an early age, writes Hameeda Naeem, ‘I got passionately involved in thinking about the fate of my homeland, which paradoxically seemed to be my own, and yet very alien’ (p. 214). An education in postcolonial theory exposed Naeem to the politics of knowledge construction and the ideological functioning of the state, the manner in which the state coerced or manufactured consent to its regulation of every aspect of human life. Gross brutalities carried out by the Indian Army against people for demanding basic civic rights, several of whom included the author’s own family, galvanized Naeem into political activism. Not only the repressive forces of the government but the public media – ‘analyses of television debates; the invited panelists; write-ups in the national English and vernacular papers, magazines, and reports from the government agencies; and …reporting on the conflict by the national media’ (p. 220) – too bear responsibility for distorting facts and silencing minority voices. As a result, the history of Kashmir, both past and present, stands severely diminished, and children are brought up ‘almost rootless’ (p. 221).
In all, this collection of essays is a compelling tribute to the need for genuine democracy for Kashmir, one that will account for all of its voices, religions, languages, histories, and traditions. One must believe that the sharing of such views with other scholars, particularly in the Indian subcontinent, will produce some movement, if barely perceptible, towards a fuller understanding and a possible settlement of the Kashmir issue. Furthermore, the book provides an instructive framework for both theoreticians and practitioners who work on global minority issues which bears some resemblance to that of Kashmir. An obvious example which springs to mind and is located in at least four states is that of the Kurds. In Iraq, there is a clear Kurdish history, identity, and perspective and at the present time efforts are being made to delimit a boundary to the Kurdish area which takes into account the variables discussed in this book. The Parchment of Kashmir is a step in the direction toward a broader, yet deeper, knowledge of Kashmir as told by Kashmiris. More than this: to read its parchment is an invitation to extend our social and ethical thinking.
Alpana Sharma
Wright State University, Dayton




Friday, April 5, 2013

Rishekesh, on the Ganga.   

Rishekesh is a beautiful place on the foothills of the Himalays where the Ganga flows through from the ice covered mountains. Just being here one can't help but feel blessed.  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rishikesh      
Ramjulla bridge

On the ghats


Pilgram taking their purifying bath

weekend job selling flowers 
Lord Zhiva statue by the water

It is a very busy town sprawling up the side of  three mountains. There are many Indian tourists on the weekends and also many come for pilgrimage. People stay in the numerous ashrams to receive teaching from their gurus  but the majority come for a dip in the clean water of the Ganga to receive blessing and stay in the guest houses. I will take a dip in the water here when it gets warmer before I would take a dip in the  Ganga in Varanasi. The water is frosty blue, clear and really cold just off the ice caps.
I came here to join a yoga peeth for 6 week teacher training in Hatha Yoga. It is only a few days in and every muscle is hurting. (All those weeks in meditation did not tone muscle for sure.) There are 50 people on the course and we are in 2 groups. I am lucky to be in the smaller group of 20 in the nicer accommodation.  We have 2 teachers, one Indian, one from USA with very different style, so this will be interesting. The schedule starts at 6am and we have 4 hours of yoga asana per day, 1 hour of Philospohy, 1 hour of Anatomy and around 1 hour of breathing techniques (pranayama). So it is a full day but we do still manage a 3 hour break in the afternoon to study or see the sites. Since I got here though I have had a bad cold  so I have been lazy in the breaks. Anyway I am sure this will be a very good learning experience and will keep you posted.

Rishekesh has also been made famous by the Fab Four who visited here in 1968. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Beatles_in_India

Here is the happy rishekesh song written by the fab four when they were here   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mJfG8vWpK5k   and a wee clip I found on You Tube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gXsJ1tBaTw

with the Guru

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Leaving Bodhgaya; one door closes and another opens

Leaving Bodhgaya is always hard and often a wee tear or two comes but yoga in Rishekesh awaits.
So before leaving I often offer robes to the Buddha and this year I dressed him in yellow; very nice.

Buddha Statue at Mahabodhi temple

Pilgrims offers all kinds of robes to this statue, it is a wee bit like dressing up a Barbie doll and I have seen some fun colours on this statue. Everything from shimmery gold and silver to scarlet red and hot pink with gold. I think the hot pink robes must have been offered by the Thai gay community. Anyway I joke about it  but to offer robes to this statue is very auspicious thing to do and represents ones respect to the Buddha as a teacher and one dedication to following and understanding the Dharma (Buddha realization the self and reality of the nature of reality.) So I offered robes then went to get one last blessing from the Bodhi tree. You cannot get to touch the tree anymore because people were tearing off the bark for souvenirs, so people now place the crown of their heads on the stone set into the enclosure which protects the tree. 
I left Bodhgaya in the evening as the sun set and the night sky was turning that blue/ black colour and the start were truly like diamonds in the sky. I said my goodbyes and wishes that I can again return to this amazing , yet weird place. Rishekesh here I come.

Thai monk praying at the tree







Buddhism for the Masses

Buddha attained enlightenment and taught that we too can attain the same realization. He likened himself to a doctor who can diagnose the patient and recommend medicine, which is the path of practice but it is up to each patient to take the medicine as prescribed. So the responsibility for one’s own awakening in our own hands. However I often wonder does Buddha cringe at seeing how his teachings have become for many a blind faith religion. Lay devotees worship his image and make offering and sponsor fancy robed monastic’s to recite the sutras in ancient language which they do not understand far less adherence to the advice. Anyway the present degeneration of teachings is unfortunately riff in all religions, teaching and paths and unfortunalty Buddhism is no exception.
Thai monks

Young Tibetan monks
In Bodhgaya thousands if not millions of pilgrims flock to sit under the Bodhi tree. It is a beautiful place and  special place and I have no idea why but meditation in Bodhgaya is always very good. However for the one person who sits under the tree to attempt mediate there has to be one hundreds who sit there completely distracted. Instead of meditation the main attraction seeing to be hanging around an dwaiting for a leaf to fall from the tree; a holy souviner ! I often watched the bus loads of nicely dressed pilgrims from Thailand, Sri Lanka, Vietnam, and Burma being herded around the tree by a monk or tour guide speaking or reciting prayers through a mike with a mini amplifier. Gosh some time there would be three groups all competing to be heard. A cacophony of prayers in various languages said by distracted people in their best dress, looking pious and showing off their offerings.  What would the Buddha think?  
Vietnamese nuns chat


Tibetan nun make offering

Korean Zen

Burmese mother and monk son

Thai monk



He never wanted images made of him far less have a statue be an object of peoples devotion. On some days when there were large crowds mixed with Indian tourist snapping pictures of everything and having complete disregard for people trying to meditate or pray, the noise, the pushing and shoving to get to the tree or statue made me wonder, what was Buddhism really all about and what was I doing there? Was I just mouthing the prayers as well, was I being appearing pious to others? and yes I admit it I also have a wee stash of  Bodhi leaves. Then I would stop and remember my the feeling in my heart and the years of practice in this place and thought no it is ok, your right where you need to be; and so are all these people. We are all here trying to understand Buddhas teaching, looking for inspiration on how to lead a peaceful meaning full life and we all have our own obstacles to that understanding which we have to overcome. Mine is dealing with so many Asians at once !
The group that was most interesting to me were the Indian Buddhist, many of whom have converted to Buddhism from Hinduism out of disagreement with the cast system or a desire to go back to what their ancestors practiced. They were all so happy to be there and just elated when people would acknowledge them as equals. Their wonder at the place and their humility toward everyone was inspiring, made me feel a bit embarrassed of my judgements.
So on my last day in Bodhgaya I just watched and appreciated the effort of so many pilgrims from so many countries to come to this place and are trying to practice a non-violent religion. In this day and age this can only be a good thing and hey if they push and show are noisy or do not know what the monks are reciting then who am I to say any different beacuse we are all here in peace.
New Buddhist from Maharashtra India

Indian Buddhist lady's
Lady in prayer

Sri Lankan group






Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Meet Prem and his family

I first met Prem in 1996 when he was the waiter at Mohamed's restaurant in Bodhgaya, he must have been  around 18 at that time Prem is always friendly, kind and help full and over the years me and a whole lot of other foreigners who frequent the restaurant have grown to love Prem. Here I should also mention that Prem means, Love in Hindi. Prem is one of the most patient, kind, honest, hard working person I know. He come from Mahakal village near the cave where Buddha practiced strict meditation and fasting before he became enlightened. So Prem's village sees bus loads of wealthy tourist every day during the tourist season and yet his village is literally dirt poor. All the houses are made of mud with thatch roofs and there is one water pump about at 30 minute walk from the village. Since the village is in a rocky area the water is deep underground and growing food can be difficult. Prem is saving to get a well drilled on his property but allowing access for the village with a private bathing area for the women. Prem is also the very proud owner of the village's only toilet. He says that since he became Christian he need to give his family that privacy out of respect. Prem laughed as he  told me that some of the tourist bus drivers and auto rickshaw drivers know he has the only toilet so sometimes bring over a bursting tourist in need of some privacy. There is no designated are in the village for toilet   and people just go anywhere; it is kind of stinky in the heat. On my visit we also went to the church which helped found. It is a small concrete building at the edge of the village, painted bright purple and sporting a cross and sign. The church was funded by some Koreans and the small community of Christians are so proud of there small, but very clean place of worship. It is so unusually to have Christianity in Bihar but the numbers of converts from Hinduism is growing. This is also true of Buddhism and I think it has alot to do with the fact that Buddhism and Christianity have no cast system and are big on teaching respect of self, others and the environment.
The Village Church
 Prem supports his family by working in Bodhgaya and since Mohamed built a new guest house Prem is the manager there and has retired from waiting tables. Prem has no education and is only now learning to read and write, in fact he says his children are teaching him more. He is quite amazing really as when he was waiting tables no-one knew he could not read. We would have to right down our orders and then also tell him what the order was as he looked at the paper. We never realized but he was memorizing the shape of letters to the order. Not even his boss Mohamed knew he could not read. Prem fool us all he has a great memory and could attended to 10 table and possibly 20 orders at a time. So over time a few of us foreigners have helped him out learning some letters and words and he is still happy to learn. He is also a great father in that he has put a lot of emphasis on getting his kids educated. He has 4 boys, (the oldest one of 14 is not in the picture) and has adopted  a girl. The girls father died and Prem adopted the baby girl so that her young mother could re-marry. I am guessing that a new husband would not want another mans baby! Anyway Prem tells the story that he asked his wife and children what to do about helping this young mother and his boys said that they would like a baby sister. So with his wife's agreement  the family adopted her and she is just a wee darling and the family call her a baby sent from God.
I had a great day with Prem and am just so inspired by his kind nature, service to other sand work within his community. I am also hoping that maybe next year we can work on getting that well dug.

Monday, April 1, 2013


Mind; the Final Frontier

I feel it has been a long time since I have sat down to write and since coming out of retreat. I have been in a whirlwind of activity which is, after retreat mentally exhausting. Partly it is just the mind and body speeding up again to keep up with reality but also volunteering with Sonam at Arya Tara Mandir was a full on  busy but great experience. Anyway I now sit in the bus station in Delhi and have 2 hours to catch you up the travels and also take some time to remind myself of the retreat experience by trying to communicate it to you. 
Ahhhhhh….. BUT Hold on ………… a young, lost, blond, American lass with a huge back pack just came up to me and needed some assistance with getting her bus sorted out; it is her first time in India. OK try again……. BUT Now I have a well dress mid 40’s man plunk himself right next to me and is staring at my every click on the keyboard, guess he has never seen a white woman type? Patience Linda, patience. There is not much peace at the bus station but here goes.
So retreat!
The following lines are the opening of the primary text of Buddha’s teaching; The Dhammapada and we would recite these lines every morning to remember why we were attempting to train our minds. I found these lines, simple, clear, practical and inspiring; maybe you will too.

Mind is the foreunner of all conditions. Mind is cheif and thoughts are mind made.                                                         If with and impure mind one speaks or acts then pain follows                                                                                    just as sure as the wheel follows the hoof of an ox

Mind is the forerunner of all conditions.Mind is cheif and thoughts are mind made.                                                If with a pure mind one speaks or acts then happiness follows just like the shadow than never leaves.                                                      

We humans are constantly looking outside of ourselves for comfort, happiness, solutions to social problems or answers to our existential crises; very few people look inward. However in our defense, having two eyes that look outward, we have simply just not acquired the habit of looking inward. Historical though those that do delve into the inner landscape have came up with some amazing insights and advice for us; i.e. Jesus, Buddha, Mahavira, Moses, Mohammed, Bahila but also many realized people of no religious faith such as Krishnamurti and even today we have Ekart Tolle, who I believe has some realization of ultimate reality…http://www.eckharttolle.com and I just heard about a teacher called Mooji which I have to find out about. http://www.mooji.org/
I think we humans are also wired to seek solutions to our problems or search for happiness not only outside of ourselves but also just over the next ridge, over the border, in a new sunrise, in a new relationship or like Captain Kirk and the crew in the next galaxy. We are all optimists or adventurers believing that answers lie out there, somewhere and that we just have to find them. So we spend our lives chasing this desire to attain peace/ happiness, attempting all kinds of stunts and schemes in the process only to come home empty handed, disillusioned or unsatisfied. The individual or ego with its huge sense of self importance gets such a boost when it finds just a wee bit of happiness or an answer to a question, especially when it can show all the other egos how great it thinks it is. My point is that questing inward is relatively new territory for us masses. It is fearfull, uncomfortable territory and takes I think it takes guts to admit to the state of one’s mind; well I know my mind is not always so pretty. So anyway I say that Buddhism is not opium but a very scientific approach to understanding the mind, it is not for the faint of heart and if retreat is the laboratory then meditation is the method used in the experiment of knowing the mind. Can it bring ultimate happiness and answer our questions like the teachers say? Well that is for each to find out. Many people will never even think to try, some will dabble in attempt to get a bit of peace, to be seen as cool or gain a bit more focus so they can be successful in their job or business. Then there are the ‘crazies’ like me who spend weeks on a cushion great  making efforts to try and  understand what meditation and the mind are really about.

So while in the laboratory of retreat we had to forge all distraction such as reading, talking, computers and phones which was great! This helps settle the mind, calm it down. Each day we began at 5am and finished at 9am at night. We alternated between sitting and walking meditation which lasted 45 minutes and would have a few breaks and a teaching session in the evening. At first 45 minute was torture. My legs wanted to move, I wanted to swat that fly, scratch, wipe off the sweat drops or fiddle with the cushion, shawl or clothing; anything but sit still. However, as the retreat progressed and the mind settled I found that sitting 45 minutes was not long enough and would happily sit 60 to 70 minutes.
We were attempting to do two kinds of meditation which complement each other. The first is called Calm Abiding; in Pali (the language used at the time of the Buddha) it is called Samatha, in Tibetan, Shiny and is an exercise in focusing the mind on an object. If you have ever tired meditation you will know that the mind is constantly thinking, either about the past, the future. It re-visits old events re-inventing the ending, regretting what might have been or invents a fantasy future, scheming ways in which to conquer the world or at least grab a bit of happiness. Very, very seldom is the mind fully in the now. So the purpose of meditation is not to stop the thoughts but simple not to be taken in by them, not follow them but just to see them for what they are; i.e. moments in the mind stream that arises and passes. Ven. Antonio, the retreat leader mentioned that about 90% of what we think either never happens or is a complete exaduration or misinterpretation of what is happening will happen or happened.  Interesting?
Anyway we all sat on our cushions and attempted to focus the mind on the breath. The breath is a very natural object of observation, an anchor that we can come back to when the mind goes off with a thought. So focusing, or a better word to use is, resting the mind on the object of meditation, i.e. on the breath. We were instructed to watch the stomach rise and fall, feel the air pass through the nose and into the lungs. We tried not to control the breath, hold it, or distort its natural rhythm but rather we attempted to “let the breath breathe.” Sounds easy but give it a try. The hardest thing in attempting calm abiding is sitting still with the spine straight, to not move and learn to manage any pain that comes. When pain did come the technique teaches to acknowledge the pain, label it as pain but then return to the breath. To try and not let the mind get into a whole story about how much the pain hurts but just observe it without judgment and creating a story about it; such as “Oh my God my legs will fall off if I don’t move.” No one’s legs ever fell off from sitting still but it is quiet funny how the mind will create a complete myth to get you distracted from finding out how the mind works.  The mind is very much like a naughty child, who does not want the parent to find out what it has been up to. Try it…. Just try watch what your mind is doing and for sure it will invent some activity that needs your urgent attention. So anyway this struggle went on for days, trying not to follow the thoughts but rather focus on watching the breath do its thing and attempting to sit and get comfortable with pain. In this way after about 5/6 days the mind did calm down and it was very pleasant to have a contented mind.

The Tibetans have a great image which shows the 9 stages of meditation which is helpful in understanding the process. It also give me some hope that it is possible to calm and focus the mind on what you want to and not have the mind charging alone like a crazed elephant. This image is painted on most Tibetan mediation halls and I would often spend time examining the one on the Gompa (meditation hall) at Root Institute. So here it is. At first the monk/meditator is chasing the black untamed elephant which is being led by the black monkey and slowly the monk tames the elephant and monk show by the animals becoming white. The last picture shows the monk riding the white elephant with the money beside him. I think it is pretty cool way to show what is a very intricate and difficult process.

Next came Special Insight meditation, in Pali it is called Vipassina, in Tibetan, Lacktong. Having accomplished some amount of calmness of mind, stability and focus of the mind, we next used that focus to examine the present, the now. It is easy to understand intellectually that the present is impermanent, like our thoughts the present arises and passes but the trick it to experience the present, not with thought and thinking but in feeling. For it is immersion if the full, visceral experience of any activity that we come to know it; only by doing do we get acquainted and become expert. You have probably had the experience of being so engrossed with an activity that you truly enjoy an activity where all you senses are activated and your mind is completely focuses, so much so that you lose all sense of time, all sense of self; the ego melts away and true joy and contentment arises. So in this way just as we used the breath in Calm Abiding to focus, we used the senses in Special Insight to gain experience and come to know of the present. 
First the sense of touch; we were instructed to feel all sensations of the body. The skin sweating, the numbness and tingling of muscles, the digestion working and of course pain. The practice here is again just to observe without the mind making up a story about the sensations just watching and letting go and with this we are completely in the present. Then we could also observe sounds coming and going again not liking or disliking just letting the sound be sound. This was funny because Bodhgaya is not the quiet place it used to be and we had all kind of noises to deal with from school children on megaphones, to wedding music and chanting, or I should say yelling of prayers at 5am. The memory of one teacher came to mind who said that attempting meditation in Las Vegas is real practice…. Hahah   well today meditation in Bodhgaya is a real challenge and it was funny how after 8/9 days, sound did just become sound and I was not disturbed by it This is a wee miracle considering how much I can get agitated by noise. Smell did not figure much as we were in a lovely environment with no bad smells. Now sight was a tough one. We meditated with the eyes slightly open, this stop the meditator from becoming to sleepy. To let movement be movement was tough as there was always someone fidgeting, and just when I managed to get my mind settled the person next to me or in front of me would move and there went my mind creating a story about that person moving. On a good day the story would be, “oh, poor lass, she must have sore knees, or she is maybe remembering a bad memory” and that thought would be followed with the urge to give her a hug. Then on a bad day when my mind was all tight a wound up with some negative obsession it would say, “Geeze that woman has to be crazy that she can’t sit still,” and that negative though would be followed with the urge to grab her hands to stay still or go punch her. Interesting how the object is the same but my mind creates the story from which all actions can help or harm. During meal time we were instructed to explore the sense of taste; i.e. eat slowly, focus on the taste of each mouthful and let it all just be taste without like or dislike.

We also practiced walking meditation which is a beautiful practice. I truly enjoyed it and it complimented the sitting practice in that whatever focus we managed to get during sitting we then tried to maintain it during walking. This trains the mind to be aware and mindful when moving. I learned to move slowly, lifting the foot, shifting the weight of the body, planting the foot on the earth, feeling the earth and connecting with it as I balanced, then lifting the next foot and moving. Yes it is defiantly rocket science but a beautiful experience and it took you into the now. Coming out of retreat I could not help but noticed how uncontrolled we humans are in out movements. Here in India maybe more so than in the west but people bump into each other, wave or swing their arms in all directions, talk and walk without looking or looking behind and walking forward. It is funny to watch after retreat but also a bit sad as movement is a reflection of just how distracted a person’s mind is.
Anyway I hope I have explained this clearly but maybe I have confused you even more. So my apologies and I ask for your patience as I am trying to comprehend this experiment as I go.
So this process takes months even years to perfect and the aim is the meditator to seeing and experience the true nature of the self and reality around us; to conquer the final frontier of the mind. For me, this beginner meditator I felt chunks of ego, worry, fear and confusion fall away and contentment arise.

Requirements for Mahayana Meditation.
The first requirement is an amount of renunciation of the idea that worldly activities can bring ultimate happiness.  This does not mean that you give away all your possessions, or stop enjoying life but rather recognize that possessions and pleasurable experiences can’t bring true happiness. This is kind of obvious because why would you lock yourself away from the world if you were not sick of it in some form or another. Anyway this sense of renunciation that is emerging within me is probably due to several factors; my age with its lack of desire to keep rushing around and the wisdom to recognize what is more important activity to spend my precious time on; life experience complete with its disappointments and non lasting glimpses of happiness; getting an education, which made me realized that educational, materialistic, political, economic, religious and nationalistic systems are all forms of control fueled by greed and or fear; and lastly just watching so many people investing their precious lives in relatively meaningless pursuits that distract them from the basic facts that we all endure disease, illness, old age and death. The song which inspired me years ago when I was starting on the Buddhist path is by Bjork, “there’s more to life that this”http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jz5Yj25mvTI

So some amount of renunciation of the belief that this world can bring ultimate happiness.  Check!
 Then comes acquiring some amount of Bodhichitta, which is the altruistic wish to benefit, help and see others happy. Just hang around India, or down town any city in the world and see the homeless, the drunks and druggies, the prostitutes, the beggar children or the well designer dresses people with their cell phones, jewelry, inflated egos, bad manners and stressed out faces and any person with half a heart would have the wish for all our fellow human beings to be happy. So we all have the capacity for Bodhichitta to arise and I am trying to make it a habit. Check! 
The Right View is the 3rd requirement for successful meditation in the Mahayana tradition. Right View is twofold; recognition of impermanence and our interdependent nature and the recognition of cause and effect. All things and all people are dependent on each other for our happiness and sadness, for our food, clothing and housing, our practice of anger, patience, generosity or stinginess, for there being peace or war. We cannot get away from this basic fact but yet we do not see it and even go as far as to say we are individuals; what rubbish, what pretension, how sad we are not grateful to all people not just our immediate family, friends or community. Cause and effect relates to our actions, whether they are of body speech or mind they all have a result. Results of actions are experienced in this life and if you like the idea of a next life then the next life too, but let’s stick to this life, what we can experience. For example, keep anger, suspicion and greed in your mind or keep kindness, patience and generosity in your mind and it will determine if people want to be around you or not. These mind sets will also it will determine the type of death you have. So I am trying, often struggling to remember my interconnectedness to others, avoiding harmful actions and creating positive actions. I try to practice kindness toward the annoying person because he gives me the opportunity to practice patience. To be grateful to the auto driver who drives me to my guest house at night, even if he does rip me off for 10 extra rupees. To be humbled by and great full to the teacher, class mates, parents, friends and lama’s who have taught me everything from washing behind my ears and eating my greens, the ABC’s,  how to use facebook, to the high level of Buddhist philosophy which I am contorting my brain and body to understand. Thanks yi all, could not be here now without you.

So, Renunciation, Bodhichitta and the Right View are needed for Mahayana meditation to be somewhat successful. I am in no way saying I have these qualities but I am trying to develop them  and can understand as well as appreciate why they are a necessary foundation for further steps on this path. These qualities are not easy to develop but this is why it is all called mind training and why many label Buddhism; science of the mind.